So....

I can't afford therapy (thanks to my ex wife!) so I am going to use this blog to vent.  I have a lot of problems, so enjoy your little view into my world of crazy.

Quick background - I came home one day to find my wife had cleared out the house.  Just about everything was gone.  I am sure I will re-hash all of my problems as this blog progresses, so for the sake of time lets just say this was a calumniation of secrets and lies by her.

Now I find myself alone and depressed 8 months after that day.  Life is a constant struggle, and the only thing that keeps me from putting my 9 mil pistol in my mouth and pulling the trigger is my gorgeous little daughter.  The only thing that makes me smile anymore.

Being a basket case, I also have a lot of other problems.

• I  am in love with a co worker that is married.  Never done anything about it, nor will I.
• I cry every night I don't have my daughter, thankfully that is only 20% of the time.
• I regularly engage in risky behavior on the nights I don't have my daughter.  Sex with strangers or married women (not the co-worker above), excessive drinking, and other behavior that will destroy me.
•  Crazy women excite me and cause me grief.  Normal is boring.

The simple fact is, I hate my life.  It seems the feeling is mutual.  Lets enjoy watching my life implode together, shall we?